Trying

How can I have fun
When whenever I do
Youre on my back
Flailing, screaming
Getting angry at my happiness

Find your own joy
Stop living off of my pain
I dont know what to do
For you to trust me again

I just want friends
I just want fun
But when I try to get these things
You seem to be the one
Who's pushing me down
Who's telling me no
Who's saying I'm wrong
Who just won't let go
Just let me live
And you live too
And we can compare stories
Of our adventures apart
Then make memories
Together

I can't stand you being mad at me
But I don't know how to fix this
I dont know how to fix this
I dont know how to fix this
Things have gotten out of hand
And I don't know how to fix this

Help me change
Help me grow
I dont want to do this
On my own
I want to be friends
But I want to live too
I dont want to live in the shadows
Anymore than you do

So let's just live and get along
Let's play and be happy
There's no room for sadness
When your friends are dead
Live life for them
To make up for their lost time

Instead of crying and being sad
Lift up your face
And look at the sky
Breathe in deep
And realize why
Life is worth living
Live bold and strong
One day at a time
There's nothing better than looking back
And saying that you tried.
You were trying all along.