Blur

Driving down this old highwway
My head against the window
Trying not to admit defeat
But all I can do is open up my eyes
And cry.

Like the rain the tears roll down the window
I look at the blur we pass
Looks like my life
Blurs of colors,
Sometimes bright, sometimes dull
Blending together
Experience after tragedy
The life line rolls on
Life just gets harder
And its all a blur.

So many memories
Haunt me, follow me
Trying to learn
Trying to grow
But it all pulls me back
3 steps forward 4 steps back
Going nowhere
Miss the ones I've left behind
Can't ever stay
Running away from everything
So scared to pull through
Want to stay, have to leave
Can't stand the way I am
The thing I've become
I dont know how to live anymore
People say Im strong
They say Im brave
They see my smiling face
The mask I wear in this damn town
The line between right and wrong
Has blurred in my eyes
And things are numb
Scared to love again
Scared to get out of bed
And face the world I knew.

Blurs of Happiness
Combine with blurs of pain
Blurs of loneliness
Blurs of rain
Blurs of bliss with
Blurs of you and me
Blurs of the way things used to be.

But its my life
I made it this way
Try to pick out the colors
In the Blur of Reality
And make them the best
Life I can hope to lead.